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Summer 16.....

So the summer is finally here! 
After what seems like the longest winter ever, sunshine and warm weather has reached us!!! 

I was watching an episode of 'Hey Arnold' (The kids list for a perfect Saturday),I started to think with all the hype around 'Summer 6teen'..... Considering the last few months with turning 30, professional changes, family problems and some speed bumps in my love life, I deserved a little fun ! 
So I came up with a bucket list for Summer Sixteen, so from June 20 to Sept 23 I want to life my life like its golden (and hopefully get the perfect golden tan).


See two concerts, So far I have tickets to the Bad Boy Reunion concert in Columbus,Ohio and I am super excited the company coming in to see it with me!! Hopefully the next show will either be Drake, Beyonce or DMX Fly on a planeGo to a drive in movie Plant something prettyHave a water gun/water balloon fightGet my hair braided; I am such a creature of habit, so I keep my bundles in all year long, but …
Granny B and yes that big ear, yellow baby is me....
“This is a place where grandmothers hold babies on their laps under the stars and whisper in their ears that the lights in the sky are holes in the floor of heaven.” ― Rick Bragg


Ten years, and a day after Jerome left us, I guess he came to get my Grandmother too.


After talking to a good friend of mine,I realized how much her (and all grandmothers) are truly a foundation in our lives. Most grandmothers, aren't just baking and sending money, but also second mothers,and care givers.  I spent a lot of time at my grandmothers house as a child, and can honestly say her house was where I got a lot of my habits as an adult..... My love for reading, obsession with shopping (costume jewelry and sequin hats), bargain hunting, infatuation with purchasing home goods that I will never use, being able to step out for a day and have an adventure without spending any real money and not taking anyone (including family) shit.
.....All things I plan to …

June 13th

I remember this day quite well....
Long after the nightmares have stopped...

Ten years ago today,I woke up with no appetite really.... My parents house was quiet ....
Even Prince, the family dog seemed not eat or do much?

We got in the car, rode down to the hospital that had become our second home over that week,praying for some kind of miracle,but really preparing of the inevitable ..... 

Days prior the doctors brought us in the conference room, sat us down and told us that he wouldn't make it,the his organs would soon start fighting the machine, and the rest of his days could be spent in a vegetative state. I remember sitting there angry... Angry at doctors, angry at him,hell even angry at myself for whatever stupid argument we had weeks prior?

We went to his room, was met by so many of his friends, former coaches,family members, and nurses who were so perplexed as to why he had so many round the clock visitors... I actually remember a nurse saying ' Is he a celebrity? Like a prof…

The struggle...

To Whom This May Concern,

I often feel trapped when writing my blog....This is the reason of the inconsistent post over the past several years....

Since I often pride myself by how little I share about my romantic and professional life (unless you followed me on snapchat last week,smh), it is a real struggle to convey how to handle the real life Confessions of a Fluffy Girl Trapped in The Midwest....

Between coworkers, potential employers ,friends, romantic partners, and my dad (Hey Daddy!) reading, I try to filter what I am willing (and not willing) to talk about in person..... I hate awakward references to cis4cookii.com in casual settings.....

Because this is my therapy,my soapbox if you will...
So in the next few weeks, I plan to release some unfinished blogs ....Post that never made the cut, due to writers block ,attempts to spare feelings or whatever reason.....

These are my confessions






-Ash