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The tale of two identities.

As children, most of us are raised to go to college, get good jobs and strive for greatness.

As black children, most of us are raised to go to college, be better than 'them' so you can't be denied, strive for greatness and act accordingly in spaces that are not our own.

As a lot of us grow up, we take heed to our lessons, aiming for success, entering spaces (and tax brackets) that weren't able to be accessed by our grandparents and sometimes our own parents, but struggle because we aren't taught the rules of 'the game' nor do we start out from a equal space than our colleagues. 
Imagine taking your 5 year old child, telling them they have learn all the 1st grade through 6th grade material at once in a room full of 11 year olds who are already dealing with advance placement work...
So we are forced to learn on our own and quickly, how to 'act' ,where to be authentic ourselves, which hairstyles to wear ,what to wear to off hours company events, hell how t…
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Dear Non-Black Readers,
If your black friends posting about racism and the TERRORIST attacks against black people make YOU uncomfortable ,imagine how they feel being black DAILY or if you are more concerned with the destruction of iNUSRED property and no the reason it was disturbed in the first place.....
PLEASE check yourself and your privilege.

xoxo, Cookii.

Chapter 6 .....Silvia

And just like that.... I had a date.

The scramble began, I had to cram 6-8 weeks of recovery plans in a matter of 10 days....

Oh, and  I mention this is my final semester of my degree?
So yea on top of working full time, trying to navigate through my interpersonal relationships,  and processing whatever is about to happen, I had to navigate what this could possibly look like for the last of my education.

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I was extremely emotional at this point and probably closer to my breaking point that what I honestly wanted to admit..........
I was scared.
Scared of the pain, the recovery, the incision, hell how my body would look and feel because I had honestly just adjusted to the initial weight loss and of course dying.
While both procedures are fairly simple, its rare that they are done together....So I had no clue what to expect but that I was going to be in pain...
I got my tribe together for surgery/recovery plans, bought plenty of wine (they like red wine),and started really proc…

Chapter 5

So I go back to see the plastic surgeon days following the MRI....

She admits that the mass sitting there needed to be removed and it would be better in the long run for it to be gone for my desired results regarding her surgery. I asked her about doing the surgery with the other surgeon ....

She starred at me

And I starred at her...

'Well, we could do it, but just so you know this is going to hurt...like a lot and this makes the possibility for infection higher'  (Now seeing how I have a HUGE mass on my uterus the size of a child, I would imagine this would hurt)
'......But there is no sense in cutting twice, if our schedules can permit this we will do it'
I looked up at her and asked 'Well can you get a picture of the skin you are going to cut? I want to see it...'
She laughed and agreed.
Now this is literally the best news I had heard in weeks....

However we had a few variables.....
a-The plastic surgeon made it painfully clear this is her show and it will be …

5 Things I have learned during quarintine

At the point you are reading this, I have been 'social distancing' for about 70+ days (you guys are just joining me)...

So I am gonna take a quick break to tell you about the 5 things I have learned while being in the house....

1. You can literally learn ANYTHING on YouTube. 
I have learned to make hot glue wigs, waist beads, and candle making thus fair ....
I may take up nails if these salons don't open up soon...
Outside of my hair (which is essential since of my vitamin deficiencies and my stylist is dope as hell ), I have learned that a lot of things I pay for are for experience and are luxury....Not to discredit industry professionals because they are professionals but I do feel better knowing I can maintain things or learn new skills.

2. Delivery services are LIFE....
I honestly save money buy utilizing delivery services, because I am the person at Target picking up shit I didn't go in there for......
God bless the Amazon, Instacart ,UPS,Shipt,etc  workers who kee…